( in that moment as he sat up there in the hospital bed he looked deep into her eyes and basked in the moment the two were sharing. from the soft roughness of her voice, the way she said those words and how they seemed to swim in his head, all he could do was smile at her softly. he was more than sure, deep in the back of his mind the reason why she might have approached him― he wasn't that into the dancers, kept to himself, and was mostly there to drink away the loneliness and stress of his job. at the end of the day their thoughts were mutual; it didn't matter.

what mattered was the outcome of their meeting and it was here in this moment, free from being close to death that he felt grateful that she approached him first. he probably wouldn't have at all and not because of her profession or anything; in that moment he just knew rejection was always waiting him.

not now though, there was none of that. )

That's because I love you so much too. It makes my day seeing all your silly thoughts...I kept thinking about them there.

( in that room where he was being held prisoner of course. )

Crazy thing about fate right? I couldn't in a million years imagine that uh....we'd really be here talking about marriage after that first hello.

( it was cheesy in a way really but that's what he needed now when his mind and body were so fragile. )

Did he? Fuck...( and don't mind a tear or two escaping him as he thought about his cat. dejected and broken much like he was now when he found him― adam had been the only one to give the poor guy a chance and now it seemed the tables were turned. maria was the one saving adam now. )

I missed you both so much really. I'm never letting either of you go even if I get taken kicking and screaming again.