( any other man would reel at the thought of being handled as if he were a fragile toy, about to fall apart from a simple glance. to a man like adam who had gone through something so brutal and torturous, to find the woman he loved and gave him hope actually here by his side—

well it left him genuinely feeling loved. he closed his eyes as she spoke, squeezing far tighter than he should [almost to the point where he was seeing stars], but it was all he could do to keep from falling apart. to avoid having a breakdown from the sights he was forced to see...to being abandoned without care by a man he actually went out of his way to help and comfort.

when it was his turn to lose his shit in that room well, he had no one. )

I love you too that's why I.....

( and like before, he had the worst timing and yet he couldn't help it. he needed to make his true feelings and intentions known just in case he didn't survive the night. )

I want you to be my wife. In that room I realized I've been fucking wasting my time, wasting yours dragging my feet around being so terrified to tell you my feelings. But you're actually here now, you waited for me. You're the only person I can trust.

So I want us to be real, official....whatever the fuck we want to call it. I just don't want to waste anymore time.